Back to earth...

I cannot in any way, shape or form complain about my life.  I have a nice home, a healthy, happy family and reliable cars, food in the pantry, a few bucks in the wallet and a closet full of clothes and shoes.  When any of us want something we usually have the funds to make it happen right away or within a couple of weeks by saving up for it.
We live pretty frugally around here.  Our biggest expense is our family karate lessons which by the way, are worth every penny because of the confidence, exercise and self discipline they instill in all of us.  We don't buy name brand clothing, no magazine subscriptions, no premium cable.  Pretty much, the only place I can cut spending is on gas for my car and food.  I'm OK on gas.  Between taking my son to school, the grocery store and the occasional appointment, I really have nowhere to be.  The food on the other hand...  I've really gotten bad about not cooking and taking the family out to eat once (or more) times a week.  Now this wouldn't be too bad if we ate at Taco Bell, but we don't.  The last thing I want when I'm paying money is to have sub-par food and to buss my own table.  This is the only thing I can control- so I will.
I used to be really adamant about planning every meal and following through with it.  Lately though I've had the frame of mind that there was money left and since we weren't working toward saving for anything specific why not be pampered. 
This weekend I saw something to work toward.  Something big, something that I have dreamed about, something that my husband has dreamed out, something that my son fell in love with.  It is a really big something and just the thought of it not being possible gets my stomach in knots and my brain churning about what I can do to help make it possible.  Beyond living like church mice and me getting a paying job it won't be possible.  I'm more than willing to do both- and more if I can think of it.
So here is a little request to you, from me.  Pray for me.  Pray that I can make what my family so desperately wants and loves possible for us.  Pray that I can come up with a way to make an income that will allow me to still be able to take care of my son, husband and home.  Pray that I can do this.